October 13th

All my life, I`ve grown up lucky enough not to see someone super close to me die. In the past 4 years I have lost a neighbor suddenly, my uncle of cancer, and my great grandmother of old age and cancer. This year, I moved away to college. Two weeks ago, we found out that my pop pop has cancer, and its moving very quickly and hes very far along. There`s nothing we can do about it and at this point were just waiting for him to leave. He stopped eating and is loosing more and more weight each day. I`m home on fall break, and I go back to school tomorrow night. Tomorrow I`m supposed to say goodbye to him. How do I even deal with this? What do I even say to him? I`m awful at showing my feelings for people especially in this situation.